I'm bored. So, I finally decided to post an entry to this oldd blog of mine. Ever feel like you're this small little person trying to scream for air in a massive crowd? Hahs. Anyway, I really have to watch myself when I'm stuck at home. Sometimes, I feel that there's something wrong with me. I have frequent headaches, I don't eat regular meals, my face is getting duller and I can't concentrate in school. Oh yeah, starting from tomorrow, I'll have to report to the stupid principal at 7.15am. And I just can't wake up early! If only I could get my job back. The funny thing is, when I was working, I could wake up early for school. But now without a job, I can't. I wonder why. Told ya there's something wrong with me. =D

I'm so so alone. Haha. Sometimes, when there's just no one to talk to, you tend to go to the last resort. Like for example, a past love. Well, my advice is that you NEVER EVER go to them without thinking twice. If you're comfortable, that is, of course you can.

I may be alone and useless with no one to really talk to, but I'm still struggling to live my life rather than thinking about suicide.

I promised myself that I will never talk to anyone about what I feel. I'll just state anything to describe how I feel, even though words are just not enough. Good people are really rare nowadays. Some people just say that they are by your side,you can never know whether the person is really sincere about it. So, don't blame me for not being supportive, I've tried and you just took everything I said like worthless counts of passing air.

To those who really have best friends, loved ones and you're always being remembered of, please treasure them. You really have them, it's just that you have so many other ones, you just can't tell which are diamonds and which are stones...

My parents? They are always working and sometimes arguing. My friends? I don't know where they are and we are just getting further apart. The ones I could really approach are the four walls of my house, my computer, my psp and a diamond called Fida.

I feel like I'm flying a kite which represents my life in the rain.

I just hope some miracle can happen...